why did you leave me!!!!

Now that you’re gone, I realize

How much you meant to me.

My loss is wide as a starless night sky,

And deep as a stormy sea.

I miss the comfort of your sweet love,

Your absolute devotion;

Now I’m a fountain of endless tears,

A pool of sad emotion.

They tell me I should move on with life,

That time will heal my pain;

I smile and nod and agree with them,

While I slowly go insane.

wHEn @ G|rL |S.....

tasting the raindrops

Looking in ur eyes

I feel myself falling in love with u

u said I love u

And I said it too

We went to our very own special spot

For no real reason at all

We sat and talked and looked at one another

And then the rain began to fall
We could have left just as quick as we came

But no, u wanted to stay in the rain

u asked me a question I'll never forget

Have u ever tasted the raindrops?
I looked at u funny and u gave me a sigh

The cutest look, as I wondered, why?

Why, did u ask me to taste the rain?

Well, what did I have to loose or gain?
I watched u with a careful eye

And did the same as u

u were looking up at the cloudy sky

But my eyes were stuck on u like glue

I lifted my head to look at the sky

And closed my eyes really tight

Just as I thought

I'd caught a raindrop

u suddenly held me tight
I opened my eyes with slight alarm

As u kissed me soft and sweet

I remember that kiss like it was yesterday

I still feel those raindrops on my cheek
I tasted the raindrops like I never had before

It was worth every second of bliss

Every time I think of that moment

I think of my raindrop kiss

We sat close together on that one special rock

And we held each other tight

Then almost as suddenly as it came

The sun came out from beneath the rain
The most beautiful colors

I've ever seen

Came out

The sun was setting and the moment was perfect

More than any money could buy
As the sun slowly set and the sky lit up

u began carving our names in our special rock

I told u I would never forget this moment

In my heart this memory is locked
As our names were finished and permanently engraved

We watched the sun finish its day

We slowly got up to leave this place

Which was three years ago

I haven't been to that spot three years

Where did all the time go?

I will visit this place alone this time

And I will finally have to let go
This memory will be in my heart forever

But u will not remain in my mind

I don't know if that love, will be seen again

For that love I cannot find
I will go to this spot as we promised we would

But u will not be there this time

Why is it that u can't keep ur promise?

I know that I'm keeping mine

Never again will I taste the raindrops

The way I did with u

And when I go to this spot again

I will say goodbye to u.

go!!!!

I'm drowning

drowning by thoughts of you

Don't wanna think of you anymore

but I can't

Pictures of you before my eyes

Don't wanna see you anymore

but I can't

Why can't I think of something else?

Why am I tormented by your memories?

Just go away

Leave me behind.....

undreamable love

Holding your hand and kissing you

Feeling your sweet and soft lips

cuddling, keeping eachother warm

You keeping me safe from all harm

Under the stars tonight

Along with the moonlight

Realizing this is reality

Because with you dreams can never compare

To all the things we have shared

Because our love is undreamable.

|oST

As I wonder out in the great beyond I feel alone.

I see no one else who feels the way I do.

I see no one who understands me.

I look over the vastness I call a life,

I wait for someone to call my name in search of me,

But no voices can be heard.

No one I once though to care can be found.

I am out and about just hoping to be rescued.

I search for a familiar face.

I want someone to come take me home.

I don't want to feel this way anymore...

I am so lost.

|mpossible~~~

I carved a star

into my skin
to get the pain out

that was deep within.
I want to slice a strip

into the sky

crawl right in

curl up and die.

I want to descend

into the ground

dig a hole

were i cant be found.
I want to vanish

into thin air

never seen again

gone without a care.

I want to fly

far away

into a different world

into a new day.

But no matter how hard I try

its impossible because you see

no matter what i want

I'm stuck here being "me."

hurts....

There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you

hurts me even more :(

Dil Ka Rishta

dil ka rishta bada hi pyaara hai
the bond of the heart is so very precious

kitna paagal ye dil hamaara hain
how crazy are these hearts of ours

ham to ek duusre pe marte hain
we're utterly devoted to each another

jaanta hai yeh jahaan saara hai
this whole world knows it

dil ka rishta bada hi pyaara hai
the bond of the heart is so very precious

hoke tum se judaa mere dilbar
having separated from you, my darling

main ne ro roke pal guzaara hai
I spent each and every moment weeping

kitna paagal ye dil hamaara hain
how crazy are these hearts of ours!

dil ka rishta bada hi pyaara hai
the bond of the heart is so very precious

tum na aaye ho tum na aayenge
you haven't come yet, nor will you

ab to yaadon ka yeh sahaara hai
now i can only rely on memories

kitna paagal ye dil hamaara hain
how crazy are these hearts of ours!

dil ka rishta bada hi pyaara hai
the bond of the heart is so very precious

kaun chaahega ab mere dil ko
who will want my heart now?

yeh to tuutaa huaa sitaar hai
it's a shooting star that has plummeted to earth

kitna paagal ye dil hamaara hain
how crazy are these hearts of ours!

dil ka rishta bada hi pyaara hai
the bond of the heart is so very precious

(dedicated for himself)

Meri yaadon mein mere khaabon mein roze aate ho tum
Is tarah bhala meri jaan mujhe kyun sataate ho tum

~???!!!!!~~~~

the world is still

as i stand here all alone

time pass by.....

days begins & ends.~~~

but all i wonder is

why?????????

i cant be with u

why??????????

i cant hve ure luv

world can be mean & cruel

to anyone....

but, why does it always hve to be me??????

from all the rest!!!!!!!

why do i hve to fail every time???

happiness........hopes.......fairytales

was it ever written in my fortune???

destiny unknwn!!!!

tears sooo bitter~~~~

lips sooo dry!!!!

body in agony

& all i cud say was wat can go wrong more than anything

but................

INSANITY

last ngt,i drew a heart & tried to write, as much as I cud....

i tried to write some nice words about u.

But my pen froze~~~as soon as I wrote,"I love you".

when I asked for the reason, the pen said,"he doesn't deserve ur love, Like the colors of the leaves.... he changes every season".

Magic; month of June.....

Magic; in the month of JUNE

There's magic when we hold hands

When you slip your fingers into mine

The memory always lingers

Magic always does happen

Within the feel of your palm

There's magic when we stare at each other

With no words spoken at all

The fire always burns

Magic always does happen

When I'm lost, staring at you

There's magic whenever we kiss

When your lips feather mine

I thirst for more of you

Magic always does happen

As my throat tightens.

There's magic when we make love

I yearn for more of you

Magic always does happen

When you send shivers through me

I'm your tricky wand

And you're my magician

Please wield magic with me always

"I have painted a million of kisses for you.

I have filled an ocean of tears for you.

I have walked a thousand miles for you.

I have counted the stars for you.

I did that,

all because I love you"

just a thought....

i cant wait to be with u again
u dont knw how much i miss u
i live each day as it comes
functioning in all my tasks
smiling when needed
even laughing at times
but inside i am so alone
each minute seems like an hour
each hour seems like a day
what makes this time bearable
are my thoughts of u and
knowing that i will be with u soon
i miss u sooo badly..........